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welcome Oct. 13th, 2005 @ 07:26 pm
I blog here http://vasanthkrishna.blogspot.com/

here we go again Apr. 4th, 2005 @ 02:05 pm
so I am low on confidence again .. nothing to do with my career .. more to do with people ..... I just don't have the confidence to look at people as I move around ... lest some unkind strare or remark hurts me ... it is like as I move in public places ,I shut out all the people and concentrate only on the in animate things ....

used to do this a lot in India esp when I was in Jain Collge in PUC.. that was the first time I encountered BTS buses .... some how @ the end of the boards i decided that I will not get scared ..... so I put a brave face through most of BE .....

when I came here @ first it was different .. I was able to go ahead with my work without people telling anything or perhaps I never noticed .... since the trip to India .. which was a nightmare replayed with all the people there ... I just lack the confidence to look @ people ( whom I dont know ) in their face ....

also had a bad encounter with some sophomores on saturday evening

this is the kind of thing which totally destroys me as in plays a huge influence on the rest of my life ... whenever someone makes some remark or laughs @ me ... i generally end up losing concetration even as far as work goes ... and it happened again ....

I am getting frustrated ... 23 years is a long time ... and out of that the last 19 years have been more or less spent in this manner .... I know that I am not supposed to take al this to heart and I should just ignore this ,... but trust me when it does happen .. when someone sands areound you and mocks .. it hurts .. bloody hurts ...

I need to get some confidence back to face people again ,..... have the courage to take their mocking without flinching and crawling back into a shell...

i realise that I am blessed in many ways and life could be worse ...
but when I look @ my classmates and friends I know that life could also have been kinder ....
Current Mood: crushed

can Music be mischevous Mar. 26th, 2005 @ 06:42 pm
music --- lot has been said about it -- lot has been written about it
--and it is enjoyed the world over .......

off course it is called music since it CAN NOT be expressed in words
...... you can just listen to it and feel it .....

As I maintained earlier --- sometimes the most interesting music is
not the song but the back ground tracks in movies ......

so here is presenting 2 tracks

one of them is inspiring, makes you want to accomplish, achieve.........

the second one has the mischevous quality to it .. something light and
very enjoyable

Track 1 : http://www-scf.usc.edu/~namasiva/swades%20intro.wma

Track 2 : http://www-scf.usc.edu/~namasiva/swades.wma

Alternate: http://www-scf.usc.edu/~namasiva/links.htm click on inspire
and mischief

Modi s Visa pains Mar. 26th, 2005 @ 11:26 am
Modi’s Visa Pains

So the United States has done it again --- acting as God to other nations.....

My 2 cents.... It is true that there have been human rights violations in Gujarat and the massacre of Muslims in that state during the Modi - Vajpayee regime was despicable -- a throwback to barbaric times....

However the matter is a purely internal one.... India is a vibrant democracy and the people there are smart enough to choose their leaders......

The United States has no business playing big brother and deciding who is right or wrong -- this is uncalled for interference in India's affairs...

Hypothetically India can pay back the US with the same coin...

Bush is definitely guilty of Human rights violations in Iraq, Guantanamo bay and Afghanistan..... So how would Uncle Sam take it if some country refuses to issue a visa to the president because of his policies....?

so all said and done ... there have been horrible scenes in Gujarat ,... however this is an internal matter in India and India can handle this on its own ... it does not need some one else playing the judge ....

There is a Kabir Doha which says that one should look @ the log in one s own eye before criticizing the speck of dust in another’s eye....

Maybe the US and its prez must learn that..........

finally I have been browsing through some forums where quite some Indians feel that it is justified and it is a good thing that US is passing such a judgment -- all I can say is that this was the kind of mentality of seeking outside help to resolve internal disputes which got India in trouble in the first place ... off course the US has its right to give/deny visas like any other country, but the reason they used to deny Mr. Modi’s visa is pretty sad…..

I do not like Modi or his policies, but the policies followed by the US are downright despicable.

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Peace -
Vasanth Krishna Namasivayam
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Mar. 6th, 2005 @ 12:46 am
so people apparently the design for the flag of california was 2 big mistake

read on

http://www.snopes.com/lost/bearflag.asp
Other entries
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abject, awful, base, bastard, beastly, cheap, contemptible, degrading, detestable, dirtbag, dirty, disgraceful, disreputable, down, gross, grungy, ignominious, infamous, insignificant, loathsome, low, mean, no-good, pitiful, reprehensible, scurvy, shameful, sleazy, slimy, sordid, vile, worthless, wretched, yucky

my reactions @ the guv'ners behaviour in Jharkand

http://timesofindia.indiatimes.com/articleshow/1040061.cms
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http://photos6.flickr.com/5802987_39a653c28f_m.jpg

so this is what I got today other than a cyber shot and some RAM

IN 7 th heaven
» it all lies in the way u look @ things
so there were 2 different web sites conveying the same news and yet in
this single headline the impression conveyed is so diffferent

Website 1 : Kasparov holds Anand to draw

Website 2 : Anand holds Kasparov to draw

In the former it seems that Kasparov was lucky to get a draw with
Anand ... the latter conveys the exact opposite ...

any thoughts ppl
» Welcome to the real world
They said that Mozilla and Firefox were above all security issues .. that they ushered in
an era of very safe browsing ---

Welcome to the real world ladies and gentlemen
Welcome to the real world ......

Mozilla, Firefox Open To Attack



By TechWeb News

Hackers can grab control of computers by taking advantage of vulnerabilities in both the Mozilla browser suite and the Firefox stand-alone browser, a security intelligence firm said Monday.
According to Reston, Va.-based iDefense, Mozilla 1.7.3 and Firefox 1.0 -- and likely all earlier versions as well -- include a "design error" that lets hackers create a memory heap overflow, which then allow remote code execution and a compromise of the system. Even a failed attempt to exploit this flaw could bring down the browser, added iDefense.

Mozilla characterized the problem as "high" on the severity chart, but "low" on risk, in part because it said a successful exploit was dicey. "Creating the exact conditions for exploitation--including running out of memory at just the right moment--is unlikely," Mozilla said in an online security advisory.

There is no patch -- not uncommon with Mozilla browsers -- and instead users are urged to update to the newest versions, which don't include the flaw. Mozilla 1.7.6 and just-released Firefox 1.0.1 are the recommended editions. Both can be downloaded from the Mozilla Foundation Web site.

iDefense has posted details on the vulnerability on its site.
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This is so frustrating; I mean I need to get over this home sickness real fast. I am sick of thinking about what I am missing and being depressed. All said and done this is a decision I made in March 2003, and I need to back this decision, I need to forget it all, and work hard as possible, make as much money as possible and then think about things such as returning back.



After all with what face can I return back now, I have not achieved anything. I haven’t made the kind of money one who goes abroad is expected to. I8 am yet a student, not a pro in the industry.

I am being happy with mediocre – yes that is the issue here, I am being satisfied with something which isn’t good enough. This fall sense of security of having achieved something makes me have thoughts of returning back to India fast, when I have no business even thinking so until I achieve something noteworthy. Mediocre isn’t good enough, excellence is the key.



I feel so useless, like the scum of this earth, here I am at 23 still partially dependent on parents, and I am thinking of comforts already. This has to end, this semester I am going to push myself to the edge. I don’t care. I have to achieve something, actually become successful, I should work so hard I forget about all the rubbish in my life --- forget about my failed romance, forget about my horrible appearance, forget about people’s reactions in Bangalore, forget all … just forget ….



Lat 2 semesters were good and ok, this semester is going to be excellent, I should make sure this happens no matter what, get an internship here for summer and then I can come home for a 15 day sabbatical with some dignity, with some face to show.



What was I even thinking when I thought about the Infosys internship, if I so wanted to work there- I was offered the job in Dec 2003, I didn’t take it then and I want to take it now…..despicable……no this should change……the next 5 months I am going to set USC on fire……I’ll make sure when I come back home to Bangalore in Aug 2005, I have achieved something. And then maybe I can consider things such as Infosys internships………………………….
» lol
so I saw this awesome intro on a Gujju matrimonial site -- a girl explaining why she desires a NRI husband -- this one cracked me up ----



"I'm a very simple girl, no attitude, very adjustable and honest person.I'm basically looking for an NRI guy its not because i want some rich person, its just that from past 4yrs i'm working with international call center so i'm very much use to that culture but it does'nt mean that i dont have any indian culture."
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A million mridangams pounded, as my heart leapt and swirled to the music of the cosmos. And for 17 ecstatic days, all of eternity danced with me.

(A corruption of an ad line promoting tourism in India, Source – In flight magazine on the trip back.)

That one line describes my trip to Bangalore, arguably the best city in the world. (sorry for any trace for jingoism.)

As we taxied down the Shivaji International Terminal in Bombay, I couldn’t help feeling sad, at what I will be missing out on in the next few months.

I guess there are some things which can not be answered using cold logic. Los Angeles is supposed to be a dream city, a fast paced city – the city where the term road-rage originated, one of the cities in the original ‘Silicon Valley’.

Career wise and the kind of stuff you get to work on is awesome, but I learnt in the last one year that that is not the most important thing in life. Last year was a great year as far as my career goes, the best year of academics in my life---- yet I wasn’t too happy --- there is always a certain emptiness in you --- and the trip to Bangalore was awesome in that respect that it filled that emptiness.

You see Academics/Career don’t matter too much, people are more important, friendships are more important, love is more important …………

As I type this out in the flight, I am 4000 kilometers from Bombay, somewhere over the Black Sea, the GPS claims. I remember the excitement in me when I was coming down, now that excitement isn’t there—it is like I came to Bangalore because I love the place and all of you people---- but now when I go back, it is more like, I need to do this, more out of necessity/ambition.

The trip to Bangalore was an excellent one, it was one hell of a ride, and it was 200 % better than I expected it to be --- you see Bangalore rocks…… more importantly you guys rock…

Thanks people for taking time out and spending time, I really appreciate it…… you folks are the best. They say that one is blessed if one has one true friend….. I am blessed to have so many of you -------- you people are the greatest -------

See you people soon. Bye. Take Care.



Vasanth Krishna Namasivayam
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so people early today morning I hit upon this idea on how to win the
nobel prize for peace ---

You need to become a
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You guessed it right --- A MARRIAGE COUNSELLOR ( dont be shocked -- I
have proved my theory below )

see marriages have fights -- and sometimes they go to counsellers ---

Hence if you are succesful in resolving a rift --- YOU HAVE CREATED PEACE

and if you solve the issues of many couples then YOU HAVE CREATED A LOT OF PEACE

off course one issue which Vikram was pointing out was

Vikram : but it doesnt involve political disputes and international
relations..right?

but even this issue was solved when I realised this

Vasanth : well it may na
Vasanth : example
Vasanth : Bush has a crush on Manmohan Singhs wife
Vasanth : then what will happen
Vasanth : tell me

so then people if u want a peace prize become a shrink -- the marriage kind :)

I was thinking of copyrighting this idea -- but for the good of human
kind --- i am not --- let people benefit :D
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so recently I was ranting about the Bazze Ceo's incarceration

My dear friend Aravindh ( mvit ec 99 ) , displayed some awesome logic
... and reached a conclusion on why i was ranting ..

here is a snippet
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cybervasanthkrishna : but anyways arresting Bazee ceo was dirt crap
arvin5in : I think it was Okay
arvin5in : to Arrest Him.
arvin5in (3:00:39 AM): No, I think we must arrest & remand those we
can. That way we can slowly proceed towards whose we can't now.
arvin5in (3:00:51 AM): Also, this brings in some publicity for India &
Indian Police
cybervasanthkrishna (3:01:00 AM): awesome logic

arvin5in (3:02:42 AM): I think Vasanth is unhappy because he sees
himself insecure, now that he is an American.

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PS : clap clap wasnt that a marvellous piece of deduction --
I bow to the genius that is Aravindh

now only if your deduction was true -- unfortunately me being
"American" has got nothing to do with it --- I am not American, and
dont plan to be one

So I learnt some lessons from tht conversation

Lesson 1 :apparently, if a person is abroad for 365 days out of the 23
* 365 days lived so far -- he changes nationality, behaviour, etc ---
awesome logic na --- off course the logic is altered in case of
foreigners who want to become PMs -- also this logic dosent hold for
the outsiders in blore --- though they have stayed for more than 365
days

Lesson 2 : In an argument if there is no sound argument, make it
personal, puts the opposition on the defensive -- brilliant na ---
the Aussie way -- if u cant beat them fair -- sledge ---

I bow to the master Aravindh for these well taught lessons
* bows *

I am an unworthy student * sob *
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You Are the Individualist



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You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.

You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.

You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.

Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel.



» aah India at last
aah India at last

the last year has been hell in some ways

let me see -- I have been labelled weird, sterile, gay, impotent, and also ridiculed for not joining in the party ( aka drinking ) , not eating non vegetarian food ...

So firstly the tradition here is to go to a strip/ gentlemans club on arrival -- it is some sort of bloody Indian tradition --- apparently something to do with your masculinity and machoness factor --- so me NOT going to them and NOT agreeing to give company to some of my 'friends' resulted in the gay,etc tag. And oh yea u are gay unless you ogle at every string bikini clad woman at USC..

Next off course is drinking --- apparently drinking is one of the paths to salvation -- and not drinking is considered to be too conservative and not joining in the fun -- so on and so forth ---

Oh yea I do not eat non veg food -- no reason as such -- just a part of the culture --- that was how I was brought up ---- so apparently I must change my culture to fit in-----I am told of this at every step --- people try their best to tell me to start eating --- maan I have nothing against the food --- it is just a part of my culture --
how would they like it, if a Korean ( whose diets includes cockroaches) ask them to eat some --- that would be very different off course isnt it .........

Interestingly the whites whom I came across accept you for what you are --- but not the Indians -- the Indians love imposing their rituals on others --- and if you dont follow what they consider is 'cool' / 'right' be ready for some brickbats ---

Finally what can I say, in India people used to label me because of the way I look, and I come here and the same damn Indians label me because I don't join in some 'macho' traditions of theirs --- sheesh
-- which INHO is disgusting anyways ---

just because you live near Sunset Boulevard/ Hollywood you need not be morally depraved DO YOU ?

whatever ......................
India here I come
» the great Indian tomfoolery
The Great Indian tomfoolery

I just happened to visit the site http://www.delhipolice.nic.in/ (Delhi Police) and the motto reads “With you for always”.

My interest in the workings of the Delhi Police started when they scared the hell out of Nicky Boje and Herschelle Gibbs, leading to the SA players pledging that they would never set foot in India again. Apparently the Delhi police being a very efficient police force, wanted to catch all the criminals involved in the match fixing case, a totally honorable intention – no doubt.

The next case which caught my eye was the arrest of the Bazee CEO who was arrested because there was a sale of an objectionable item on Bazee. The claim was made that since Avinash Bajaj was the CEO of a portal, he has to be arrested.

Bazee.com sells 50 lakh items across 1500 categories and the CEO of the company is expected to keep track of every item which is sold on his site – that is what the Delhi Police and the Indian courts (which denied him bail) believe – and off course the Delhi Police have very honorable intentions.

After all it isn’t wrong to expect the CEO of a 50 million dollar company to keep track of the 50 lakh items sold on his portal, is it? It is perfectly reasonable, so feels the Indian justice system.

I’ll attempt to examine the concept of “CEO being responsible” funda. Since justice is all pervasive, no doubt this idea should be applied to all scenarios. I will apply this to certain cases which popped up in my mind.

Let us take our very efficient government. Recently there was a train mishap in Punjab. The minister of the railways is Laloo Prasad Yadav, so shall we hold him responsible for the mishap and arrest him for negligence?

Then there was the infamous case of Phaneesh Murthy’s behavior in Infosys Technologies. So was the then CEO Narayan Murthy responsible?

I am not sure really, maybe it is for the Indian justice system and its ardent supporters to answer the domain in which such a law can be applied.

Thousands of crimes happen in India every day, 50 percent of our politicians are criminals, all of them go scot free. But the police become extra sharp when they sniff a case with good media exposure.
The match fixing case – the case was closed with the death of Cronje – but no the bloody police have to interrogate and issue arrest warrants for the S. Africans. Why don’t they interrogate Jadeja , Prabhakar and Azhar – 3 Indians involved in the scandal – How come there seems to be no arrest warrants against them?
I came across another case – In a case of custody violence the Gulabi Bagh police station under North Delhi District decides to teach a lesson to a young man by breaking his hand and rendering him incapable of earning his livelihood for almost two months. And when their atrocity was exposed the police tried to brand him as a thief. Further more the police framed up false charges against the victim besides digging up unsubstantiated cases against him in other police station of Delhi.
So now who is responsible for this – shall we ask the Commissioner of the Delhi Police to resign?
The conduct of the police is disgusting to say the least and the Delhi court seems more than happy to give a hand. Interestingly the couple who started of all this are yet free and they go arrest the Asian CEO of ebay.com.
INHO the police should concentrate on arresting actual criminals, and not people just to get some media attention.
"Our investigations revealed that Baazee.com did not exercise due diligence, which is why the sale was continuing," Prabahkar, a senior police officer said. "Action will be taken against all those found to have liability in the case," said Prabhakar who uses one name.
Prabhakar, the great police officer who uses one name, no doubt he is modeling himself on some cheesy police flick – Captain Prabhakar perhaps?

Get a life dude!!

So anyone with answers out there, I am waiting for some brick bats and justifications of the police action.





Vasanth Krishna Namasivayam
» of school videos
So India is agog with excitement about the Delhi school scandal ---
there have been many arrests -- starting off with an IIT maverick and
ending (?) with the CEO of bazee.com, including some people who bought
the clip in the middle .

Well I firmly believe it is action gone too far --- so there was
consensual act of intimacy between the 2 teens and things got out of
hand and the clip started circulating --- effectively destroying the
lives of those 2 kids ---

but the way India is reacting now --- it seems that they are more
interested in burying evidence of the act rather than perhaps attack
at the root of the issue --- among these flurry of arrests we seem to
be losing sight of the original issue of relations pre - adulthood.

It is almost as if India does not want to acknowledge that this is
reality and such incidents are pretty frequent ( this one had the bad
luck of coming out in the open)

interesting, really the way the topic is treated as a whole in the
society --- for all the reluctance to discuss the topic - India has a
rather high population rate --- maybe they would like to believe that
babies come when you roll around a temple 108 times (?)

The point is this is nothing new -- it has happened in the past -- it
will happen in the future --- we should accept it and perhaps educate
youngsters about the possible dangers of getting into early relations
-- after that the decision is theirs --- but if they do decide to go
ahead then they will face the consequences ---
if they feel they are old enough for this, they are also old enough to
accept responsibility --
and no one has any business arresting people left and right ----

the attitude displayed by the people reminds me of this anecdote I
read about an ostrich -- whenever the ostrich feels threatened -- it
dosent run -- it buries its head in the sand -- so that it cant see
the danger ---
» Life @ NPS I'nagar revisited - a bone to pick
So --- back in school all the teachers were women and IMHO they were pretty partial towards the girls … as in anything which wasn’t specified by the CBSE board and was to be decided by the teachers was auto geared towards girls –sheesh ------

Like we had this PT Ma’am, who in 5th was leading us through some drills – and guess what she makes us learn ----BHARATNATYAM --- * waits for the shock and indignation to subside *

(yea I can still execute some B’Natyam steps, got kind of ingrained in my ROM J, though Java’s (aka Jayavaradhan) moves in bus no 12 are so much more cooler J )

So every Friday during the PT period --- she would teach us some B’Natyam steps ---- admitedly the girls were leaps ahead of us and in the end, these sessions turned out to be some sort of medevial torture session, when the girls would sit and all the guys had to follow this PT teacher *blech*(corporal punishment for making mistakes, and the girls sniggering in the background)

Hmm me thinks we should file a lawsuit
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Vasanth : Vikram I am dying ..
Vasanth : total lack of emails -- it is like cutting my oxygen supply
Vikram : call them now..NOW....NOW....NOW....NOW!!!!!
Vasanth : yea I am going to DO it
Vasanth: yes...thats the spirit vasanth...You have to DO it...
Vikram : its NOW or NEVER!!!!!
Vasanth : me thinks the Taliban has downed the Infosys mail servers
Vikram : This is the only chance you have to show the concern you have
for your freinds...dearest friends...
Vikram : you have to call them now and ask them if they are safe and
fine...!!...do it vasanth...do it now..!!!...in the meanwhile..i'll
catch some sleep
Vasanth : i called java
Vasanth : he is fine
Vikram : thats a very good news,,,,what abt the others....are they
safe?!?...have they been captured??!
Vasanth : ok things are under control
Vasanth : he came by bike
Vikram : hmm..thats a relief..but we must act cautiously
Vasanth : hence the delay in sending emails
Vasanth : totally
Vikram : we cannot afford to take things for granted...
Vikram : we'll never know what hit us...
Vasanth : yes me thinks we should have a geostationary satellite
Vasanth : to monitor proceedings in blore
Vikram : thats not a bad idea...i think we should get one for
ourselves immedialy
Vikram : that way we can keep track of our enemy...and strike them
before they do...Muhahahahaha
Vasanth : hahahahaha
Vasanth : we ROCK

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